Watching my friend's kid at the park made me think about my own choice

I was at Riverside Park in my town last Tuesday, just sitting on a bench. My friend's little boy, he's 4, was trying to climb a ladder and he fell. He ran right to her for a hug. For a second, I felt this huge wave of 'what if' about my daughter, who I placed 2 years ago. I always thought those feelings would hit at big things, like her birthday. But it was just a normal Tuesday at a park. It made me see that grief and love don't follow a calendar. They show up in quiet, everyday moments. Has anyone else had a simple moment in a normal place bring everything back?

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felixa1820d ago

Wait, Riverside Park on a Tuesday? That's the one with the weird blue slide, right? I was there last Tuesday too, just grabbing my lunch. That's wild. I probably walked right past your bench. Makes you think how many people around you are carrying that kind of weight on a totally normal afternoon.

lilyfisher20d ago

How did you even get through that? I mean, I used to tell myself that if I avoided the big dates, I'd be okay. But you're right, it's the tiny stuff that gets you. Seeing a kid with a certain color hair, or hearing a song from that year. It just comes out of nowhere and sits on your chest. That park story really hit me.